I love you more than anything. I wish I wasn’t such an idiot. I wish I could be what you want. I’m so sorry for how I am. I can’t lose you. I need you. I can’t imagine what my life would be without you. You hold me together, even if you don’t know it. Even though I never tell you that, it’s you. You keep me sane with your sanity.
I miss you. I’m so sorry I fucked things up yet again. I just… I don’t know. I’m dumb, but I can be better. You make me want to be better. I’ll fight for us. I’ll put everything into us.
As long as you want me around. If you don’t, please just let me know. I want us, but I love you and I don’t want you to feel like you have to stay with me. You don’t. Be happy. I want you to be happiest man you can be, and if that’s not with me, just tell me. Please.
If you honestly believe we still have a chance to turn this around, work with me. I wish you could see me the way I see you. I want to be happy like we were before, remember? I want things to get better. I want you… But please, if things don’t get better. If you still… love me less… Please let me know.
Tell me what to do. Let me know how to fix this. Call me out on my bullshit. Talk to me. Love me…